What has happened to Christmas spirit? Or should I say holiday spirit, need I unnecessarily offend anyone? Geez, that’s the whole problem with this world. Everyone is so easily offended these days. It’s like walking on eggshells everywhere. Now someone got offended by some Christmas song from 80 years ago. I don’t even remember which one it was, “Baby It’s Cold Outside” or something. I’m not offended, so I don’t remember. No one is offended by “Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer” or “I Saw Mama Kissing Santa Claus”. Those will be next, just wait.
Here’s what I am offended by… I’m tired of sending out 80 Christmas cards every year and not getting back jack shit. It’s Dec. 14 and I’ve gotten about 10 cards. Give me a break! I know people are busy, but there are only 10 mailing days left before the big day, so if they haven’t mailed them yet, they better get on the ball. Last year, we received about half of what we normally receive and I was disappointed. This year, with the passing of my mom, I truly thought we would get a few more. I guess my mailing list will be a lot shorter next year.
I’m also offended by the people who seem so supportive (on Facebook) when my mom passed away as though they would do anything for me. Where exactly are those people? Not one single person has come by, called, or done anything more than send a card. The hurt doesn’t go away after a month, or two, probably not even after six I suspect. Especially not at this time of year. One friend asked me out to lunch, then cancelled and I haven’t heard a word from her since. I had to cancel lunch with another friend because my daughter was home sick from school that day, but I truly hope we can reschedule after the holidays.
I’m also ticked off at a friend who I asked to make a gift for me to give to a friend who has cancer. I asked her a month ago to make this for me. I’ve been wanting to get it in the mail. She keeps putting me off and says she’ll get it done tomorrow, then the next day, then the next day. It never got done. Last night I finally said forget it. At this point, the recipient won’t get it by Christmas. I asked on Nov. 13 and it took a MONTH to get around to it! It’s an hour worth of work. I wasn’t asking her to build me the Taj Mahal. Now I don’t have a gift for my friend. Grrrr.
I am really trying to stay in the holiday spirit for my daughter. I’m hiding the elf. We are baking cookies this weekend. I bought the presents. We did St. Nick. All the pieces are there, except my heart’s not in it. My husband asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I said “my mom”. I keep willing her into my dreams. I keep wishing she will come back. I keep making deals with God to bring her back to me. I’ll be a better daughter. I’ll go visit her more. The closer we get to Christmas, the harder it gets.
I’m just looking forward to this year being over. Hoping for a refresh with a new year.